Thursday, March 28, 2013

'Love is worth the Chaos'


Love is worth the chaos”

That is quite a loaded statement, isn’t it? Most love, whether it be new love, true love, puppy love, or something in between, it brings chaos.  Love is the influx of emotions, and if done right, lots of ‘em! When you are in love, you are overjoyed with what you have, excited with what will come in the future, and scared that you may lose this new thing you found.  All these strong emotions hitting your body at once is a lot to process and when you add someone else into the mix, how can it be anything less than chaos?
Now, most people hear the word chaos and think of something negative.  The actual definition is ‘a state of utter confusion or disorder; a total lack of organization or order.’  Well, love is like that.  You have all these feelings; good, bad and otherwise, pulsing through your heart at once.  It isn’t necessarily bad but love, especially your first love, brings about all these emotions that confuse you to everything else.  Love is all encompassing and rather controlling.  In the beginning it is all you see, all you want to see, and all you have time for; this one amazing emotion that releases endorphins and makes you happy to be here. You get to experience all of this because of one other person, without them, you may never feel this way again.
Love is absolutely chaos. It is passion. Even when you are in love, you can be at the tippy top of the world, or at the very bottom.  Love can go to both extremes, because where there is passion, there are high emotions.  I have heard people describe ‘true love’ as wanting to fight with one person for the rest of their life rather than to be with anyone else.  Well, the true cynic that I am, thought this convoluted notion of love was only for Luther Vandross songs.  But I thought about it, I mean really thought about it, and that notion was sweet. 
I am a firm believer of putting crazies with other crazies, you don’t want to infect the world with more unhappy people, right? Just put all of them together.  If you like to fight, be with someone else that likes to fight, and leave the rest of us alone.

However, fighting for love isn’t really the same as fighting.  You can go from screaming and yelling to kissing and hugging in about two seconds flat.  Who’s to say what the norm is there?  Love is different for each person.  Some people have stronger feelings for their pets than other people, some people love their family more than their spouse.  But regardless, everyone has some sort of idea what love it.  Yet while we all like to think we know what love is, we really have no idea until we experience it, and I mean really experience it, ourselves.  It doesn’t matter how many times you’ve been [or thought you’ve been] in love, each love, each person is different.  The emotions never get easier, the response never gets calmer, it’s just intense, overpowering, and really, well, emotional!

Love is chaotic because it makes you feel all of these different highs and lows and really attaches you to another person.  You begin to feel without this person you will lose whatever happy effect you have.  That makes people act crazy, doing anything to keep it around.  While that notion is, in a classic sense, ‘romantic’, it makes me wonder. .  . is that what is chaotic about it?

Love is so chaotic it is hard to pin down in a definition, a word, a phrase.  It is hard to hold let alone to understand.

I feel that love is worth the chaos because it is so rare and unique (no matter how many times you’ve felt it) that it is worth going absolutely mad to protect.  Love joins two different personalities, people, families; it shows you what you’re willing to compromise on and what you aren’t, highlights your best attributes, and your worst; it really shows you what you’re made of.  Being in love makes you learn just as much about yourself than it does show you about the person you’re with.  Isn’t any form of knowledge or self discovery worth the chaos?

What are your thoughts on this quote?

If Today was your last day.



Not to quote a really [lame] Nickelback song, BUT…tomorrow I am going skydiving! Yes, skydiving.  For anyone that knows me, this is laughable, because I get terrified by a little turbulence on airplanes, hate looking down and out of a window in a sky scraper, but somehow I was convinced in to skydiving.

Apparently if you tell me to do something that might kill me, I will do it, as long as there is a ‘google offers’ or groupon deal on it.  That being said I embark on my [terrifying] life adventure tomorrow.  I feel like I have a lot of great life stories, and occasionally do silly things, but this is one thing I needed to do before I die so I can tell my [future/hypothetical] children what a bad ass their mum was. 

I am at this point in my life where I want to have as many life experiences, and good karma as I can.  While skydiving doesn’t bring particularly good karma, I signed up for the Revlon Walk for Women (May 4th. Mommy’s Angels) for that, skydiving will certainly give me with a good story [blog post] for later. 

Every girl wishes they have a love like ‘The Notebook’ where their husband will write the story of their love and read it to them when their brain goes to mush.  Really, I just want to write a kickass memoir for my kid’s to read and be like ‘oh that old lady was really something.’  I don’t want to change the world or leave a legacy in history books, I just want to impact one person; change their world, be someone, some sort of legacy or hero to them. 
While that seems like a tall order for one little skydiving trip, I don’t think it is. 

My best friend and I are going to drive 2 hours to another state to jump out of a little plane and free fall for  14k feet, knowing full aware that we are both afraid of heights.  After our [obviously] amazing adventure, we are going to go to an old school hip hop party--dressed to impress [again, obviously.]  To me, life doesn’t need to be filled with drinking or partying or anything, it just needs to be filled with memories, moments, adventures, that are different than the ‘norm’ that make it all worth it.  Looking at other people’s pictures and hearing their testimonies of skydiving, as scared as I am, I know that this is a personal victory [regardless of if I cry like a little baby.]

Life is all about taking chances and trying new things and Lord knows I am going to do just that!

An famous old saying goes ‘do one thing every day that scares you.’ Well, since free falling a million feet[*] in the air with nothing but a human backpack[†] is one of the scariest things ever; I think I am good for a while.

WISH ME LUCK! 

And keep your eyes peeled for the kickass follow up to this blorticle!

Later bloggers. :)


[*] Exaggeration.  As stated above, it is really only 14,000 ft
[†] Who also happens to be wearing a parachute